Energy
- Jiyo Shin
- Dec 30, 2024
- 2 min read
For a year, I could be summed up in three words: drained, depleted, and desperate. No matter what I did, my energy levels remained low, as if I was barely holding on. Each day, I would express gratitude to myself, saying, "I survived another day." Despite being a competent medical doctor, I couldn't identify the cause of my symptoms. Finding time to see a doctor for my own health was a constant challenge.
I vividly recall a day when I was walking with my family and found myself unable to climb hills without feeling exhausted and out of breath, despite having ridden my Peloton bike daily for 30 to 45 minutes the previous week. I feared there might be an issue with my heart. After spending thousands of dollars on cardiac evaluations, the diagnosis was inappropriate sinus tachycardia, which essentially means that we don't know the exact cause, but your heart is beating rapidly.
It was at that moment I understood the importance of using my energy wisely. I can no longer work or play as I once did. I must focus my energy on what truly matters. Naturally, my job as a physician, being the primary provider, is crucial for my family's well-being and my career. I dedicated most of my energy to my work. Most days, after work, I was too exhausted to engage with my family. I now regret not reserving some energy for my family and instead exhausting it all at work.
I wish I had known this Mantra earlier. However, there are many things I wish I had known. Divorce is undoubtedly difficult. One of the worst aspects is that it can completely drain your energy on many days. Today, with the aid of meditation for two days, I mustered the courage to get on the treadmill and walk for 30 minutes. I felt so exhausted that I was nauseous after just a 30-minute walk. When I got home, I opened my YouTube alerts and saw Dr. Kulreet Chaudhary's Weekly Dose of Sound Medicine. It gave me a bit more energy to share this. Here is the link below.
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