Distraction or Opportunity for mind to rest

I am focusing on rekindling my old passions from before marriage, childbearing, and parenting. After dedicating so much time to my family, now is the chance to prioritize myself. I exercise and eat nutritious foods that I enjoy. I plan trips for my own pleasure and relaxation, and because I'm only planning for myself, the costs are lower, allowing me to enjoy more for less money. On one hand, I wonder why I even tried to build a family that ultimately betrayed me, but I try to reassure myself that I contributed to the continuation of the human race and left a part of my genome behind. Today, I planned to test drive a new car, which might be labeled a midlife crisis car, but I am excited. It could serve as a distraction from the pain of the divorce process, yet I haven't felt this thrilled about something in a while. I see this as a chance to give my mind a break from the pain and enjoy creating positive new pathways in my brain.